Round 5: Where Do We Go Now?

[leah]

Good morning good morning!!!! 

If you have not watched the live confessional I did with Benji, I would highly recommend!! Because now that I've slept I have more thoughts. 

AJ leaving really shakes the game up, not in the way that I personally would like it, but it's a shake up for sure! I really don't know what my next steps are from here. I find it peculiar that Rocky didn't call me after tribal last night, I don't know if he genuinely believes that I didn't know Mike G was pulling off that move, and the sad thing is I GENUINELY DID NOT KNOW!!!! I really hope Rocky does not think that I knew about this, because if he did, then I'm in serious fucking trouble for something I had zero involvement in. 

I just really don't know what this does for my game moving forward. I feel like this could be a blessing in disguise long term, but I need to make it through the short term first. Michael I feel no matter what is just one of those people that is going to target me, which is fine, as long as I don't actually leave. I think we are just different personalities, and he doesn't seem like the type of player that is actually willing to do voting blocks. I mean ffs, "make friends instead of playing chess"? I know I keep harping on this but COME ONNNNNN. First "not to be that guy but lets do a swap call" and now that? He is just, not for me, but I need to like, not let him know that he's not for me?? He is definitely going to be a test for me to see if I really have changed as a player. I explained to him that if we lose again I don't want it to be a he vs I thing, and he seemed like he was agreeing to agree and not actually meaning it. If he wants that battle, that's fine, he'll just be signing his death certificate in that case (:  




He did say that someone told him me and AJ were close from our season and I'm just like huh? Had to be Carlos, but if not him Jenn, cause those are the only two people that would have that idea. 

As for my relationship with Mike G. I'm not even sure where to go. Obviously I want him around because he is a shield for me, but I don't know if he's just like, picking everyone off around me and saving me for last? I don't even know whether or not he would target me this round after the shit he pulled. I don't know what his motive is for this round, especially if we lose again. What he pulled last night is exactly why I was scared of playing with him, however I'm very curious to see if this bites him in the foot or not. 

I'm fine with having less pull in the swap, because then that right there should be able to allow me to have pull in the merge (If I even make it there at this point). 

I just feel alone in this game, rolling with the punches, going where the waves and wind takes me, and it's not the best feeling. I feel like this game is maybe teaching me that maybe I'm not that good of a player? Idk, its just hard when you don't have a SINGLE win to not feel a little defeated. I'm obviously already back on the horse that I've fallen off of, I just need the horse to not buck of me off again. 

I'm trying to see if there is a scenario that a 3-2-1 vote could be pulled off with myself, Allie, and Rocky, but I just don't know. I also feel like Mike G and Taylor might be closer than I thought, which is scary for me. I need Taylor to realize that Mike G is not the ally she thinks he is. 

[leah]

I FINALLY DO NOT HAVE TO GO TO TRIBAL COUNCIL FOR THE FIRST TIME ALL SEASON 






I NEEDED THIS FUCKING WIN LIKE HOLY CHRIST. 


Right now I’m really trying to work on my relationships with Allie and Taylor, with Michael in the background. I have established my relationship with Rocky (duh), and Mike G I think is more than aware that he needs me and can’t afford to let me go before merge. Rocky made a chat with Allie and I, and I’m not sure how close Allie is with Mike, same with Taylor. Taylor pitched an easy vote of Michael, but I’m not sure if that’s exactly what she wants to do, and is testing to see if that information gets back to her before deciding to tell me her true motives. Mike told me that essentially whatever convo I had with Allie worked as she wants me around for a while, and that the Kyle/Jenn dynamic is something to be worried about. Meanwhile, Allie I think has calmed down more from how pissed off she was after tribal council and I think she would like for Mike to go but is also conflicted as I think she still wants to work with him, but her gut can’t trust him. I do think that she does want to work with me, and I do hope that me reminding her of her childhood friend benefits me for me sliding into her longterm game plans, but right now I am just trying to ride the waves of this swap until the merge comes. 


As for the “be careful who you sacrifice” nonsense, I really hope someone isn’t coming back just because I personally am never a fan of someone that has been eliminated returning. If it does happen, then I will reassess but until then, why am I going to worry about it? 

I also will say if there is a second swap after the other tribe goes to tribal I am throwing hands!!!!! 

Lastly, for who I think will leave on Korala? I think it will realistically be Amber as from the information I have gathered from Mike and Allie it seems like Amber was the other option for when Austin was voted out. I can also see a scenario where Jenn, Kyle, Spencer, and Amber team up to take out one of the other three pink (preferably Carlos). If they were smart though, this is where they would take out Kyle. 

Only time will tell!