Round 3: Everyone Is A Ghost

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Production, the VL, and anyone watching our tribe: 


Now that I'm on a computer, I can type a little bit because I know everyone hates watching confessional videos when its just like BITCH WATCH ON 1.5 SPEED DUH!!! 

But I'm truly at a loss for words. I knew as soon as we finished competing that we lost. Jermin wanting to be optimistic I completely understand, but sweetie, we BOMBED that challenge, it literally looks like we threw it. 
I am just so fucking nervous because we've had two easy tribals, there's no way we can have a third right?? It seems like it's going to be that way as Spencer, Rocky and myself have solidified that we want to go forward together, it just sounds too good to be true, which usually means it is. 

If we don't swap, and we lose again, I think I have put in enough work with both Spencer and Rocky that they would want to vote each other and I would decide who leaves (which could also be how they team up and vote me out if we went down to two). Given that we are this low in numbers, it has to be a matter of who I think I can work with going forward, while also factoring in who I think I can separate myself from. It's a double edged sword in a sense. Rocky I know would have my back, but do I think that he would be able to sell any lie, do I think that he has the strategic acumen to be able to link up with me back at the merge??? That's where I favor Spencer. I've seen Spencer do it before, I know he's capable of surviving a swap fuck, but do I think that he would be targeted before me, and that answer is no, which is where my favoritism of Rocky comes in. I feel like no matter what decision I would make, it would be the wrong one. Which is why I'm praying for a swap after tonight. If  I swap with Rocky, I think Rocky could potentially sink himself and I could be safe for a little bit, but not for long. If I swap with Spencer, I feel like we could come up with a better narrative that would serve both he and I, but if they did target one of us I'm almost 100% positive I would be targeted over Spencer. If I swap alone? It's a reset button for me. It's just a matter of if the tribes are bonded and want to stay together, but this is a returnee season, so I'm hoping just SOMEONE, ANYONE, WOULD SWOOP ME UP. I do believe I play better from the bottom, and I have scraped my way through in the past, I just have to play better than I ever have before. There is absolutely no room for error. I just don't want this to be where my story ends. I've waited too long to play for THIS to be how my second chance goes. 

Also I hope AJ can pull something with the extra vote and stay!!! 

Me & Spencer working together: 


Me & Rocky working together while I'm trying to stay ride or die with him: 


Me cutting Jermin tonight: 

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Here’s a video anyway