Round 3 - I gotta cool it down (heated)

[mikeg]

Lawd

[mikeg]

So round 2 ends with me in another state, driving for most of the day and trying to strategize for my first tribal of the season while at a rehearsal dinner. NOT ideal. Tribal council was hard and austin clearly knew it was him but I have to do what I believe is best for my game at the time and vote him out. After tribal ends I basically tell everyone I need to go and be present for this wedding weekend and my activity is pretty abysmal following that. Monday is my drive home and nobody wants to sit out and multiple people tell me they WANT me to compete. I’ve really set myself up as a challenge asset and it makes me feel good. Then Ricky tells us we need a blindfold…and I start to freak. I’ve lost the blindfold maze challenge twice and got voted out the first all-stars because of it. I finally get home and my tribe starts practicing but I just can’t get it together. Driving all day mixed with nerves of going home on this challenge again make me start to panic and i begrudgingly tell my tribe that I need to sit out.

I get to watch the challenge and it’s nowhere near what I was afraid of. It was geography!! I memorized the entire world map for fun a few years ago and did sporcle quizzes every day until I got everything right!!!!! I start freaking out because I know all of the answers faster than my tribe and would be carrying this for us. Results are an hour later and we win by 7 seconds but I really feel like I fumbled the bag there. I could have been safe anyway if we lost but I was setting up the dominos to be the boot 100%.

We are about to have 14 players left in the game and I have no concrete understanding of the exile twist mechanic or what’s going on with the other tribes. I have veryyyy limited knowledge of this game and I feel like I’m headed toward distaste even if I’m in a good position on my current tribe. Survivor is a marathon and I’m crapping out at the first water station.

I’m 50/50 on if I want a swap tonight. I think my best chance at merge will be staying in three tribes until then. My biggest fear is being swap fucked again. I have so much more to give than that being how this story ends.